Myself [Psycho!Reader x Rivaille/Levi] chap.2

Myself [Rivaille/Levi x Phycho!Reader]

WARNING! Attention readers! Beware of psychopaths and sadist. Don't like don't read. The further chapters, could contain creepiness and violence.

Chapter 2 — Human feelings


[HAPPINESS is something you chose. Yes, you choose to be happy or to be sad, you choose to like or dislike. Yes, your life depends on you. You've chosen your happiness and your sadness. All your life, you are making decisions, whether it's on purpose or not. People decide on their own.] it was written on a book that you've read.

You weren't sure if you agree or disagree. It was somehow true. But if it is,

Were you the one who choose to be sad?...

Sadness, happiness. Hate.

You hated it. You hate feeling sad. It made you feel weak. If you were to say, you also hated corporal who made you feel this way. You hate human feelings.

Hanji's being close to Levi.

Jealousy. Hate.

Petra is on the same team as him.

Envy. Hate.

You frowned at the thought. And at the most, you hated yourself of having those ugly feelings. Was love one of them? You don't know. You don't need to know. You don't want to know. Not, yet.

For now, you will only go on.

Is that what you choose?

"Corporal [Name]!" A cadet yelled suddenly. Your team were now near the gate with Rivaille's and Hanji's team. You were now on position standby, since the commander ordered.

"What?" You asked in a cold gaze, annoyed.

"...T-the Garisson!! A message from Dot. Pixis! He need support for a sudden mission at Trost! You absolutely need to get there!"

"Tch..." You had this way to express your annoyance. "Anything else?"

"Hmmm... Corporal Rivaille should also be heading there." He said nervously gazing at the man.

Your eyes widened a bit with your eyebrows frowned. Your mouth still in a unpleased form.

"..." The cadet stood there still with his fist on his heart.

"You may leave." With a sigh, you shooed him away with one hand while the other managed to put away and organized your stuff.

The boy leaved. You stood up and finished your tea in the kettle. You've taken an interest in tea since you were a teenager. You were not only addict, you couldn't concentrate without it. Now you drink it to relax for a while.

You give the kettle to a cadet and ordered him to fill it.

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«Funny, how the titans looks when it ran. But, Oh... It's crashing humans. Funny, how the blood flew everywhere. Funny, how the others panics. What? Are you just gonna save him? He's dead and so will the others. It's way more funnier to watch them from here. Funny huh, they called it friend and comrade. Those human feelings.»

You stood there, only eyes widened. No, not of the scene, not of the death of a comrade. But at the [Voice] in your head. You didn't felt fear, or anger. You were just standing there watching. You could have killed it. But you didn't. Why? You didn't know.

«Why would you? To have more of them killed, of course. It's fun no? If only human races could go to extinct.»

The [Voice] hit you again deeply. Who was there? But you shoved it away and came back to reality.

"What the hell is happening here?" You mumbled looking at the place, the titans were all over the places and soldiers were fighting them hopelessly.

«Friendship, huh? They call this "love" isn't it? How hilarious! Those pig could abandon anything for their own sake.»

"Tch, shut up." You murmured to the voice as you dropped from the roof to help the men. You finished it up quickly and ordered the men to get on the roofs.

Suddenly, you hear footsteps. Not normal ones. A giant's, a titan's footsteps. It was heavy, loud, and echoing through the battlefield.

Everyone turned to the sound. There was a Titan. Precisely, a big Titan who carried a enormous stone on his shoulder. It breathed heavily, his eyes was green and flashing bright. You approached to watch closer the big creature.

"What the hell is that?..." You thought. It was weird, the Titan weren't eating human. Moreover, it was caring the rock. You looked down, two cadet leaded him. What, they aren't afraid? And the Titan listened to them? They were near the hole on the wall.

"Nooow!!!" The blond boy yelled.

ROOOAAAR!!!! A loud yell echoed as the Titan drop the huge stone to block the hole.

"What the hell on Earth is actually happening?" You mumbled frowning your eyebrows.

After that there were too much smoke, nothing could be seen. Until it disperse and you could see better. The Titan earlier disappeared, a soldier was holding on two others. You recognize them: Eren, Mikasa and Armin. Since you've visited the Scouting Legion before, you knew the new recruits.

«Friendship, huh. How boring and nonsense.»

While you stood there in confusion, another Titan was in the way. There was no way for the cadets to fight it. It was too late. So you hurried adjusting your wires, wondering if you can get in time.

A small shadow arrived before you could, which you knew very well. The reflecting blades killed the creature in a fast move. The man stepped on the vanishing corpse after it fell on the ground. You stopped there. Looking down coldly.

Hate.

"Oi, brats. What the hell is going on here?" The steel voice asked. Meanwhile, you were already heading back.

"Eh, Corporal [Name], where are you going?" Some soldier asked worried.

"Bothersome. Finish up with these stupid pig. There aren't many, I guess you can figure out. We're done here. Seems that it's finished." As you say, every one could notice now the yellow smokes. "I got to have a friendly talk with that Pixis. Such a nonsense."

You leaved as soon as you finished your sentence.

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"Oi, wine bastard." You called while the old man was walking along the wall. He turned to look back at you.

"My, my. Isn't it my old friend [Name]? Would you like to have some wine?" Pixis said taking out the bottle.

You change to a smile lifting an eyebrow and sighed.

"It's been a longtime. Yeah, I'll have some." You took the bottle and swallowed a bit of alcohol, making sure to not put your lips on the opening of the kettle.

"As strong as always. You know old man, this isn't healthy."

"One of my subordinate tells me that too. But just how do you resist to such deliciousness." He sat down on the edge of the wall.

"You should wonder why I call you 'wine bastard'..." You sighed sitting down beside the man.

"Now, let me know, I guess you didn't came all the way here just to insult me." He laughed.

"I'm not the kind to waste such time just to do such a nonsense."

"That's kind of awful, [Name]-san. Well, then I guess you want to ask about this?" Pixis looked at the remaining city called Trost.

"Always as smart with that old skull of yours, well it makes things faster."

"I'm glad to hear that from you. It's rare."

"Now, spit it out. Do this quickly."

"Alright. I don't know much neither. But you see, this boy called Jeäger have the power to transform into Titans."

"... You mean Eren?" You asked after taking a pause to think.

"Eren Jeager, he's called. You must know him. Tell me."

"Eren Jeager, fifteen. Joined the Scouting Legion in 847, in the 104th training brigade. Leaved in Shiganshina with his mother, his father Dr. Jeager, and his adopted sister Mikasa Ackermen." You paused, "That's the basic personal profile. Enough?"

"Pretty much. I was told from him, his father studied about titans. And locked all,the secret in the basement of this house in Shingashina. The key on his necklace is from there. It will open the door of the basement and the secret of the titans."

"So you're saying that we have to go there until the next step."

"Yes, exactly. That boy will be the key of the mystery. Just now to prove his will belonging to humanity's soldiers, he just fix the wall with his power. It made some accept him. But some hasn't. The government won't accept this." He turned back to face you with a serious look. "In other words, I need you to get him out of there alive. He is our last hope. And for this I will need your help."

"Hum. Bothersome. Acceptable. It's worth a try, if you said so. Well, I guess I don't have other choice."

"I know you would say so." He smiled handing his hand.

"Tch." You complained, accepting the handshake.


To be continued~